See Heaven's Got a Plan For you

I never want to reveal this blog under the sun. Well i mean to the public, especially to those "unkind" stalkers of mine. Be it some relatives or friends that i'm not familiar with. Your attention is much appreciated. Not to me, but my parents :)

Because of your attention, i tried so frigging hard throughout these years just to make myself look "positive". At least in front of the public. And because of you people, i tried suppressing all those negative emotions i have in me. Nah.. Ogay it's time for me to show my gratitude to you for your continuous attention in all these while. Thank you? lol

Frankly, i've had nothing left in me. I have lost the wits and faith that i used to actually possess. All the passions and dreams i used to chase after. They were long gone. I didn't even realize it when they slipped away from me. How silly i am. (chuckles)

So in love with Swedish House Mafia's song today. Yes only today i insist. I feel loved when it goes 'Don't you worry don't you worry child, see heaven's got a plan for you'
It must be great if someone could talk to me like this. Instead of words of criticism, something like this works better if your intention is to encourage me..

Hmm that's all for today. pip x2

My BFF - Gabriela Kwok

Sometimes people came into your life as passengers. So when they arrived at their destinations, they probably would have just left abruptly without a hesitation...

Thank God she is not just a passenger in my life. Lol frankly speaking, words can never be enough for me to express my gratitude to her, Gabriela Kwok. She is the person who will always be there for me when i need her. As the saying goes, a friend in need is a friend indeed. Thanks for always being such a great friend who will always stand by my side whenever i'm in need.

Although we can only meet each other like around once or twice in a year, but still we manage to maintain and enhance our friendship by communicating on FB, LINE, SKYPE and other pathways.

Due to some personal problems of mine, our friendship broke when we were 16 and it took us more than one year to really get patched. I used to be very upset because of this, but thank goodness we are now patched and the bond between us is getting even stronger.

She is a gorgeous, smart, kindhearted and confident young lady who is nearly perfect.( in my opinion :3)
She is always able to give me the wisest advices and leads me to be a better person. She is a genuine listener and comforter who will always listen to my problems and tries to provide me with the best suggestions as well as words of strength.

So once again, i wanna thank her for being one of my best friend, best sister and thanks for taking part in the story of my life for as long as 12 years. Kamsahamnida! Arigato gozaimasu! Merci! Grazie! Gracias! Kob Kun Krab! ...... (Okay sorry i'm just being bored... hahahaha )

THE END

My 19th Birthday :)

This was my first year celebrating birthday in the college. It was pretty surprising that those awesome friends of mine are really kind to me :)
Ok flashback to March 28, 2014,around 9am. One of my best buddy- Xiau Chyi lied to me that she won't be able to celebrate my birthday cause she had to go back to Johor on the same day... Then another two buddies of mine, Yong Ting and Chia Kee came to my house at night.. with some handmade flowers and a huge birthday card which was really awesome :3 Thank youu Chia Kee <3

The birthday card :3

The handmade flowers c:

okay after that we went for dinner together.So when i was enjoying my dinner, Tea xiau chyi appeared out of sudden. /\ She intended to give me a fright though it wasn't successful .. HAHAHA it was a good try anyway :D

THEN they dragged me to Kbox ><.. Haha though i actually wanted to go skating but still .. never mind haha... After that my another buddy- Sok cheng joined in. ( She rushed all the way back from KL for my bd ) lol Thanks buddy :) So all of us kept on singing till like around 12AM.. the waitress came in with a cake and 4 of them started singing birthday song for me.. haha. And they gave me a box of present with a mickey and minnie puppets inside. They then told me that they got the puppets from a doll-clipping machine cause they couldn't get any nice mickey and minnie in the shops. Lol thanks for your sincerity :3....

The lovely Mickey and Minnie :)

The overview of the birthday card :3

We sang till like around 1 am then only we got back home. Thanks a lot to someone who accompanied me chatting till 3am plus in front of the house.. :) Though it was pretty gross but still i enjoyed it very much. And i received a special booklet as present at night. It was a booklet with an interesting story with all my troll pictures in it. thank you i love it very much :) (you know who u are).

This is how it looks like :)

And thanks a lot to one of my high school buddy- ming suen, for posting a gift for me from Toa payoh, Singapore. haha. It was a black color mickey booklet which was made of leather. I like it very much thank you :) I'm using it as a notebook now !!

Mickey booklet :)

Also i have to thank one of my high school friend who used to sit beside me -- Xin Qi for treating me a meal on my birthday!! Thanks for the cake and coffee:).

Xin Qi :)

Thanks to Prisca kwan for the lame line mickey stickers too haha!! Give me real prezie when we meet up hor!!
Haha and there are still a few presents which are still in pending process due to some reasons. Ok anyway advance thank you to my dearest sis Gabriela, Gabrielle, and Christine for the upcoming prezies. Thanks a lot :)

Never an Honest word.

For some reason i can't explain, Once you go there was never, Never an honest word. That was when i ruled the world.

Don't know what to say, Just randomly feel like blogging XD

For some reason i can't explain, I love this song so freaking much. it's Viva la vida sung by Coldplay few years ago. Haha the rhythm and lyrics are so well composed and i just feel like playing it over and over again.

Well, time passes by like shooting stars >< My 4th week in semester 2 has come to an end. Soon there will be tons of presentations, assignments and exams which will definitely get me buried and .... even murdered ..... (giggles !@#$%^^&&* )

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10年前,10年后

我喜欢看电影..尤其是浪漫文艺，温暖感人，没有奸角的电影。

记得约莫10年前，我看了一部片名为“我的野蛮女友” 的电影。
当时的我，只有8岁。。
还未经世事，很多戏剧电影都还看不明白。
可是却深深地被这部电影感动
也惟有这部电影，
它真的俘虏了我的心。。。

电影中的男主角车太铉，虽然总是被野蛮泼辣的女主角全智贤欺负，
可却还是乖乖地，从不反抗地顺从着她。
他总是在她难过孤单时陪在她身边，任她发泄任她欺凌。
就算被打得鼻青脸肿，却还是甘之如饴。

虽然他长得并不帅，
却很温暖，很体贴，
就像温煦的阳光，温暖着女主角的心，
也温暖了数百万影迷的心。

刚才心血来潮，突然想起了这部电影。。
就在PPS 搜索了一会儿， 找到了这部既陌生又熟悉的电影。
相隔10年， 我怀抱着和当初一样的心情看完了这部电影。。
这次我依旧感受到当初的感动，当初的温暖，
却也多了一份当初没有的心情， 这种感觉叫心痛。

看着深爱着她的男主角， 望着深爱的人离去的那一刹那，
我的心像是被人用两根手指反复揉捏着一样， 特别的揪心。。
可感到揪心的当儿，却也感到很温暖。。
我想，爱的最大境界应该就是放手吧。。
因为很爱很爱，
所以更应该放手让她自由地飞。。。

我很喜欢全智贤，
从小就很喜欢。。。
我喜欢她与生俱来的霸气，不愿服输的性格，她那若有似无轻蔑的嘴角，和她那头随风飘扬的乌黑秀发。。
集霸气，美貌，自信，气质于一身的全智贤，
一直是我心目中最最最美，
最最最爷们，
最最最霸气的韩国女星。。。 此人无人能及，无人能媲美。限量发行，仅此一枚。

我想，不管过了多少年，
我再看这部电影时，
依然会感动，揪心，温暖,泪流。
因为它不仅仅是一部电影，
也是一个动人心弦的故事，
述说着两个人的青春，
两个人的爱情。

我想，
两个人在一起志不在相濡以沫，举案齐眉。。
因为爱，不是占有，
不是束缚，
而是放手。

Faded Memories

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我不孤单

你,就是狂野...Baby 没有改变. 无尽的地平线蔓延. 解开心中的束缚,自由地飞.

凌晨4点钟, 莫名的情绪在我的心里滋长着... 从前,对于人与人之间的关系,我会想要去了解,去探讨,去明白. 现在,我只想彻底地放空,我既不想去了解,也不想去明白.

或许,我并不害怕孤单. 或许,我会爱上一个人的感觉. 或许,有一天我会一个人去流浪. 或许,根本就没有或许.

我以为自己害怕孤单, 所以总是让自己不孤单. 我以为自己怕寂寞, 所以总是找人相伴. 其实尽管身边有那么多人, 如果心是孤单的, 那么一切都只是徒然.

Wind Of Change

 1/11/2012

It's already been more than one year since i stopped blogging in the month of May last year..
 Each and every single time i open this blog, sorrowness creeps silently into my mind and it somehow brings me some kind of indescribable feeling... freedom.. I don't know why.. but it's how i feel in my deep heart core.

It's November again..
Everytime when i listen to 'November Rain' by The Guns and Roses,
i feel like i am frowning inside. It's like so hard to explain when i'm completely drowned in myself alone...

Somehow, a part of me is missing..
Aha......
One year ago, i was so desperate..  Wanting to go back to those glory pasts.
Now, when the same question is to be asked again, i will rather move on to my future life..
 What's past is past.. Once some part of the thing we obsess to is missing, the feeling will never be the same anymore...No matter how hard we try to salvage.. the missing part will still remain broken in both of us..
 Like how the Guns and Roses said, 'Nothing lasts forever, And we both know hearts can change'...
And It's actually time to let go ..

Spm Is coming up in few days time..
but I'm still drowning in the missing part of myself.. All alone..

Random xoxoxoxxo

its been so damn long since i updated my blog a couple of months ago.....
lol im bleeding inside. idk why but i just feel hell bad.. all the time..
sometimes im just too emotional that i cant even stand myself.
so many things had happened in these 2 months which changed me completely into another person....

im a different me now.. issit a good thing? lol... i reckon im a freak.
honestly i dont even know whether im good or not.. maybe im a evil demon.. Who knows? lol..

am gettin emo now.... get jealous easily which is totally absurd..
lol im bad.. stay away from me people XD

PARIS WHITE JOHNSON...lol its my last time thinking of u my sis... your long gone..

sept.... 2010

sept 11 2010... i had a nightmare... dreamt abt my best frn.. i thought she was going to leave me forever.. i really miss u..i miss those precious moments we had
spent together... holy shit...><

How i miss u... LOL.

VOULEZ VOUS...

pmr is around the corner.. ):

boring days ..

NAWWWWWWW PMR trial exam is just around the corner....n i havent prepare for it -.-


HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWSS... IS COMING UP SOON. IN NOVEMBER WOOTS!!!!

LAUGH MY A$$ OFF

somehow i'm leading a miserable life... i hate it!!...my life is a failure....i'm so exhausted yet noone could understand how i feel... there's only sorrowness in my soul...

till now,..... i find that I'M NOTHING.... noone will give a single damn about ME!!!
how sad ... and how miserable... DAMN IT LMAO

MY soul

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a stupid ques ... by a dumb

Does this happen to you?
You have a certain place.
That you never want to go back to.
Or a phone number you want to delete.
But you just can't do it.
U know what i mean?
It's like certain things.
You thought you'd long forgotten.
And then they end up. AND AFFECTING UR ENTIRE LIFE

bm timess

lol..my sej teacher completely nuts...we all given only few days to complete that stupid donkey kursus.....haha nvm i photostated by others....as she wont noe....

hahazz..saye mungkin dah ade bakteria hni1....kerane lawat ke smk agama last thurs...
but seem im healthy...lolx...orelse...my skul can be closed down too...dulll

i asked mel to teach me those arabi words ..she said: ko masuk islam la...saye ajar amu lepas tu......lol...kao..i wont masuk one lorh...haha....i dont use tudung ....



the guy in the pic~ liminho...hottest guy

fuc...day

today extremely tired....attended a stupid camp today...in an agama school...all abt motivasi pmr...
so i spent most of the time to chat with melisa haha....she didn even listen to the speech...

the ceramah started by 0830 ...till 1630....well...u could imagine that how boring was it...bahasa melayu, followed by english , math and science...
the bm speeh quite okay...the english tutor was the worst...he was like reading the poems....we all doing our own things instead of listening to his speech....
but i was still in good mood although the ceramah was...not interesting indeed..
maybee cox i kept chatting ba...haha...thx melisa

well...the most fuc thing today was that....arrogant swine....jealous my result then said im proud...u are the proud one kays? duhhh.....

it's been so long...

It's been so long
that I haven't seen your face
I'm Tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away
it wont be long before i get you by my side
And just hold you, tease you, squeeze you
Tell you what's been on my mind


the words up there are meaningful....isn't?
love this song quite much.....hope to go for akon's concert at sunway lagoon..
shld be quite fun....

dduh...
im boring...monthly test is cming..again..that damn sejarah...cums out with all form 1 syllables...walaoeh...how to memorizeee?

felt quite sorry to gab..for not going today..hope she wont mind..

lol..i wondered ft island's heaven very nice....one of them looks cute..
but dunnoe his name..

하고 싶어하다.곧잘[걸핏하면
좋아하다.호감을 가지다.마음에 들다.애호하다

==...i'm in stress...life is meaningless

最近超闷。。。其实我一直都很闷。。。。一年半了。。。
自从上了中学后好像都没开心过。。。

有时候会想回到从前。。。。小时候的我。。。当时的纯真，无邪。。好像都没烦恼似的。

有时会很钻牛角尖。。。甚至不知自己在干什么。。。很矛盾
如果我从不曾出现在这世界里。。应该会更好吧？ 这是我有时候的想法。。。

好像得罪了很多人。。不知道是我个人的问题还是我们真的不合。。。。
我想。。应该是我太不通人情吧。。。

中学生涯实在是痛苦。。。或许是我的执著，使他们认为我对它们有成见吧。。。
如果我在下次月考赢他的话，那又会如何呢？